the days tat i'm goin through...

March update

2009-03-15T18:29:00.000-07:00

Yeah...finally new update^_^ 1st of all, thx for all those comment:D
After finishing 3 days work in Butterworth n PISA,Penang. At last i'm free once again:P

but tis morning, i ned to prepare myself to re-organize my club after being left for quite awhile since last sem was a short sem while a lots of thing can't be done due to rushing assignment n EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok...wat i hav been gone through recently. Beginning of March, unfortunately to say my ah gong went into Hospital due to constipation for several days which my dad was worried abt it. so he send him from kedah to 'Lam Hua Ee' hospital as it has all my granpa records over there. After my dad finish his part, i continue my role as a grand-son which considered the third generation...(how come it sounds like NARUTO which hav Hokage-_-? from different generation -_-'' ) so...where were we *_* oh ya~~~so after, hospital admittance my grandpa. Then i went back to pack my things, so tat i can take care my grandpa in the "DARKKNIGHT" Opps~~~its midnight.

*arghhh*??? i was a bit fed up wif the nurse attitutte when we r registering our grandpa's admittance. but since i'm in a gd mood(get to meet my ah gong) so i don care la^^ after admitted for few days check up n finally my grnadpa gets to discharge as he can finally go to toilet:P
(The end)

while next story was~~~i manage to help one of my fren to settle some financial problem which i hope he learns from his mistake. Instead of addicted to wat he's doin-_- haiz~~~

Commitment~~~izzit tat important?

2009-03-02T09:31:00.000-08:00

towards all the gal....is commitment so important?

which one will u choose?
1. an empty promises e.g (i'll love u forever...?, or by juz saying tat will make u feels like flying?)
2. or rather stay wif him by observing wat he can really do instead of giving all those unachievable promises?
3. or u hav ur own comment?

plz vote^^
thx for the comment~~~

wat am i doin recently~~~

2009-03-02T09:10:00.000-08:00

erm...i feel like leaving tis place as it really depress me:'(
u may be wondering y?
due to family keep on nagging who i am...
(can't i juz be who i am rather to be wat u guys wan me to be?)

i wish i could juz leave n go instead of caring abt their feeling.
but by doin tat i'll be a good for nothing or so called unworthy descendants.

it's so contradicting~~~y cant i juz be a useless person who do all the bad things till my family gives up on me then i can be watever i wan-_-

but when comes back to reality, i'm still a person who cares abt my family therefore for now i don think i'll left my family juz becoz of i can't handle my own preassure. ha...ha...ha..(-_-'')haiz

but i wont guarantee wat i would become in the future as i'm still in a blur condition after everything i hav been gone through for 23yr 8mth +++

a song dedication to those who know me^^

2009-03-02T07:41:00.000-08:00

Artist: DNR
Album title: Popstyles
Release date: 2007-12-12
Label: Cavendish Music

Talk to me
Speak with me
Don't sink before you rise, baby
Don't fade away
You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels a world away
Who's to say, we'll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don't want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget
And now, who's to say, we'll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don't want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
Cause we're the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me
I want you to stay here with me

can get from me if u wan the song^^

Haiz...i forgot most of the thing tat i wish to blog d :'(

2009-02-18T23:14:00.000-08:00

i'll juz try to write la... recently i juz spotted one female driver, PFS or PFH 9758 (metalic silver kelisa) in farlim who has the driving skill tat i'm impress wif it^^ since i'm one of the racing driver type:P

as a driver, if u manage to figure out which is the shortest route to ur destination, it would definately save time n petrol^^ inspite of tat, u muz hav the skill to cut queue 'here n there' to make the whole process successful.

Example: most ppl told me tat if u come from farlim to KDU is considered as far -_- therefore i asked them is 10min driving considered as far? then their face turns into ===> OoO'' HAHAHA!!! therefore guys n gals learn how to drive smart,k?

oh ya...recently i hav conduct a small research abt 'does it consume more petrol if u accelerate more?' the answer is nope, as my above statement, if u r capable in cutting queue n manage to use low gear all the time then then consumption of the petrol wont cost u much^__^

oh ya~~~one more thing, don accelerate Ur RPM over then 2, then should be perfect for the whole combination...hohoho~~~

and if u don understand:P plz feel free to drop by n further ask question. lolz...

(looking forward to meet tat gal...coz nvr meet a gal who's gd in driving yet:P) juz JK~~~

I'm back

2009-02-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

Finally the internet tat i had been register is approved due to previous owner was blacklisted therefore i was needed to go through all the miserable procedure to clarify i'm not tat person^^.
Banzai!!!!

First of all, sorry for unable n lazy to update my profile coz due to no internet n lazy to sit in cc or my college lab to update my blog juz becoz i really don hav the mood to write there-_-. anyway it's over now, since i hav my internet at home i can easily update my blog anytime when i hav the mood~~~wakaka [ but also hav to depends i hav the time n mood also:) ]

Next, i feel like i'm writing an essay but who cares:P hoho~~~ i want to thx PATRICE and my new SIS: ESTHER who leave comment to encourage me although i'm no longer down as the beginning of 'the days tat i'm goin through' i was surprise to see, i hav comment even thou i didn't update my blog...hehe( show off a bit) coz got fans ma~~~lolz

Day 4 (part 2)

2009-01-03T01:06:00.000-08:00

ever cant finish ur favourite food?
ever laugh till u cry? (i mean cry becoz u r sad)
ever can't sleep for several night?
ever lose the one u love?

i hav try all of tis in a few days... i like to eat Chiken Terriyaki in Shinjutei which situated in Pulau Tikus. tis is the 1st time i can't finish the whole set of food in...30min!!! usually it's only takes 15min for me to finish the food. until i ned to ask my fren to help me finish it. but then my fren did comfort me wif a lots of jokes as he's quite a humorous guy but then do u know wat happen? i laugh till i cry which one another of my fren was shocked during he's eating his food.

recently i cant really sleep well at night coz when i close my eyes all the memory will come straightaway till i'm abit freak out. (can someone plz tell me how to overcome tis situation?)

unless u r a cold blood person, or else nvr ever try to lose the one u love or else u'll suffer wat i hav been go through so far... tis is the beginning of the nightmare, do u think u can overcome it?

03.01.2009 tis morning i drove like a mad person to release my stress. i drove 140-160 after i passed sungai dua toll. which the whole journey from penang to kedah only take me 55min. can u imagine how fast is tat? try it then u know....

Day 4

2009-01-02T22:54:00.000-08:00

yesterday my fren from kedah visited me. luckily i still hav frens ard me when i'm confronting tis miserable situation or else i might end up commit suicide (cakap saja la, so don worry^^) anyway wif them ard i wont feel tat lonely. but unfortunately, it's sad tat when i travel wif them here n there, i saw the car plate wif the number of 328 for like 5 times from morning till midnight when we reach home at ard 4am. (328 is actually her birthday)

during the last time i saw the car no. plate, i felt my heart is being stabbed by thousand of sharp blade. the worst is when i'm abt to sleep my brain keep on bringing the memory between me n her. can u imagine the pain of imagining her wif another guy while u r trying to sleep. trust me it's worst then sending u to hell.

but i get to release stress by playing games wif my cousin n frens from kedah n penang.
the games tat we r playing called "left 4 dead" it's a shooting game actually. but then it's quite fun. it allows me to release all my stress whileplaying the games. (u guys might wanna try it:D) it's kinda scary also coz it involves zombie n creature. then we proceed DOTA-ing since all the members arrived after thier movie. (but i'm noob in DOTA, luckily my 2 fren r pros so with their guide i still manage to survive n help out.)

after playing for 5-6 hours, eventually i still hav to go back to my reality world therefore the miserable thought is coming back to me again. end up, lying on the bed n thinking of her again-_-

Break up Day 3~~~

2009-01-01T20:05:00.000-08:00

after being together for 624 days, finally my relationship wif my beloved one ended.
i think i deserved the punishment for not being to give her all the love tat i have while she's still around me. due to lack of love, she manage to find someone who can really truelly love her therefore i wish she could get wat she wants from the new relationship.

THE FEELING OF B.U.D (Break Up Days)
after feeling sorrow from the day she told me tat a guy is actually chasing after her. i can't really do much as her heart is half way deciding wat to do.

the effort tat i hav imply to save the unsaveble relationship is juz nth as the decision is being made. therefore guys n gals plz treat ur partner well or else u'll end up regret for the rest of ur whole life when it comes to u do really love her after u had seperate wif each other.